Holy cow, twenty posts already. That means that I’m over one third of the way through the year. Fun fact: the days where I’m wearing jeans are usually my travel days.
This week, my lesson was that you’re no longer just working a job when you’re an entrepreneur.
For many people, work is a sense of their identity. Some people even have trouble leaving their work at work when they come home at the end of the day, struggling to let things subdue in their mind, and let go of whatever struggles and concerns they’re currently dealing with professionally.
What I noticed, when I was working at a job, was that I could separate myself fairly easily from the work. My emotional state did not dictate my experience of my job, nor the success of the business I was working in.
All of that disappeared when I became an entrepreneur. If I’m feeling happy and living in abundance, so too is my business. If I’m feeling upset and clenching at scarcity, my business has a tendency to do the same thing.
Most entrepreneurs go into business for themselves because they want a business that reflects who they are in the world. They want to work a job that is an extension of who they are, and how they’re being.
Then they immediately forget about all that and work themselves to dust.
As an entrepreneur, we are our business. How we’re being, moment to moment has a very real and legitimate impact on our business. And in much the same way, our business has a very real impact on us. When the business is going well, we’re doing well.
A tough day at work is no longer simply something to gripe about — it’s an indication of how we’re doing. If you’re not careful, everything can become a reflection of yourself.
With this kind of relationship, I’m learning that it’s no loner an option to plow over my emotions and try to work over top of them. It’s not working. When I’m feeling sadness, it is my duty, not only to myself, but also my clients, to actually be with that sadness. If I try to deny who I am, it will come out in my business. If I don’t allow myself to be … myself, the impact is now greater than just a shitty evening at home with Bay.
For anyone that’s used to working over top of their emotions and ignoring what’s currently real for them (I’m talking about me), this will seem problematic. The usual way we’ve learned of doing things is starting to bankrupt. We can’t just put ourselves on hold and expect things to work out. It’s not that there’s a problem with the business — the problem is with the strategy I developed long ago to cope with my feelings.
For the first time in my life, I’m being required to actually experience everything that is so for me – my business has simply become the vehicle by which this breakthrough is delivered.