Two months ago, the CEO of Accomplishment Coaching, mentor and dear friend of mine, Christopher McAuliffe, gave me a charge. He suggested that I take on writing a heartfelt, vulnerable, enrolling e-mail to my team once a day, for 31 days.
I took that charge on. I got so much out of it (as did my team), that I decided to continue the practice, and included my team in Seattle on the e-mails as well.
In the middle of the breakdown I’m currently in, it seems fitting that I start sharing these with the rest of the world. My work is around authenticity and vulnerability. Showing up as ourselves, even, and especially when, it’s not okay to do so (spoiler alert: it’s always okay).
So, starting today, I’ll be posting these e-mails to this blog as well, and sharing them on Facebook. I hope you enjoy them. This is as much a part of my journey as my entrepreneurial guide is, and the intention is to give you as much insight as possible into the organ I spent thirty-plus years hiding from the world – my heart.
I want to create inspiration today.
Not because it will fix my breakdown, but because it will provide something to me. Inspiration is my life’s purpose, and it’s what I want to create in the world more than anything.
Christopher suggested, last weekend, that I focus on creating inspiration, rather than money, and trust that the money will come.
That’s so hard for me. I care about money. I love clothes and shoes. I want to be able to take vacations with Bay. I want a larger house.
Underneath all of this, it feels like my breakdown somehow swirls around this. I know that the hero’s journey involves falling off our horse multiple times. I know that the difference between a warrior and a coward is not that one has fears and the other does not, but rather what they do with those fears.
I have fears. Lots of them. I’m fearful that I can’t generate clients at a whopping rate of $1,500. I’m fearful that I’m never going to get to the point as a coach, where I’m having my clients generate the results they want. I’m fearful that it’ll all fall apart, and even though I got my practice to this point, stepping in to bolder possibility will cause it to all fall apart.
Anyhow, none of those fears are particularly inspiring to me, but I think the inspiration comes from having them, owning them, sharing them, and choosing to act in spite of them.
That’s what I’m choosing to do. I don’t actually know if it will make a difference, to be honest. All I really know is that I’ve got this video from Rocky IV playing (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye8jddRP-bs) and what really matters is continuing, rather than stopping.
I’m just a warrior training.